within temptations

Right now

2011-08-24T01:08:00.002+08:00

A lot can happen in 2 weeks. a lot.

Throughout this 2 weeks, i realised i need to start reevaluate everything.
What happened in this 2 weeks tested my friendships.
I know not many of you read my blog but this is my way of venting, so here goes..

what happened not only hurt him, it hurt me too.
I didnt go public about how i felt, but im sure he did. This cost me a lot of pain.
I think, every story has 2 sides of it, and people should know that.
Clearly, some of them didnt.

For the past few days, ive been at home, sleeping in the day time and playing The Sims Social at night. And thats about sums up my past few days.
not a good habit to pick up. I should spend my last few weeks, going out and be happy.

I really need my bestfriends with me. but i cant bring myself to let them know that.

They have so many things going on for them, they dont need another burden like me to bring them out of their loop.

I feel very vulnerable and fragile.
I have less than a month here and i just want everything to be great especially before i leave.

good day!

2011-07-30T00:26:00.002+08:00

Today was really fun! Very chill :) Spent only RM2 on milo ice hahah.
Hung out with friends i havent seen in like ages. Like *PETERNEIK* ahem. Bloody sohai, too busy to hang out with me :(

But twas good, had about 200 games of pool. After playing with Haris, i feel like bettering myself at it by alot, like actually practicing. Seeing how I have a month and a half to play around and do nothing, i could do something "beneficial" and practice pool :p how i wish that could burn my fats away.

I wanted to dedicate next month (August) to like work-out, hardcore! FAIL, next month is fasting month -__-

I wish eating could make me lose weight.

Just had pizza for dinner D:

toophat.>:(

peaceeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

yay!

2011-07-28T19:53:00.004+08:00

I know its been months since i last blogged.
Alot has happened since March (my last post)!

Most of my friends know that Ive worked so haardd to put together an art portfolio from scratch with no guidance but help from my close friends (all in the span of 3 months). I practically stayed at home from January to March just to complete it by painting, drawing, brain-storming, sewing, sketching & what not. Just to make it more fun and less painful, i did it all infront of the tv.

My interview for the University of the Arts London was at the end of march. I was sooo nervous, I was literally shaking. But it was all worth it when I got accepted to London College of Fashion (one of the colleges under UAL) eventhough it wasnt my initial choice. I was soo happy.

Right after that though, I had sooo much freedom. Im only leaving to the UK on the 14th September. So, since late March til now, i have been doing nothing beneficial. Just spent alot of my parents money.. I feel really really bad okay!

Here's a list of what ive been doing since march:

1. I went to Singapore.. twice. Shopping spreeee!

2. I got my visa done, finallyyyy! It got approved, thank god. Applying for visa was probably the most annoying thing ive ever done. Especially the UK visa -__- They ask you questions like as if everyone is a potential terrorist.

3. I got a couple of modelling gigs. Just for exposure, nothing serious!

4. Said goodbye to all my friends that left to aussie :(

5. WENT FOR INCUBUS!!!!!!!!!!!!! hell freaking yeah. Got their autographs too :p he-he

6. Cleared out my closet. had no idea how much junk i had til i cleared it. I might even do a post on de-cluttering your closet.

7. tried to do a lot of things that actually benefit me like lose weight, eat healthy, take up kickboxing, save money. atleast, i tried. haha :P

8. Found myself a roommate to live with in the UK!

9. Went out a loooott.

10. Ate alot of good food.

11. Spent almost all of my savings on the above ^

12. Went through puberty [Phase 2]

Yeah, well that basically sums it up.
Dont know whether anyone still reads my blog. but if you do, i'll give you a cookie :)

ps:/ you should de-clutter your life, makes you feel better, i promisee :) sorry, watched too much Oprah!

Cussing.

2011-03-02T21:49:00.002+08:00

I like cuss words!
I think people should start censoring their mouths.
So... Learn from me!

1. F*CK : FATHER/FISH/FISHCAKE/CRAP
2. MOTHERF*CKER: MOTHERFATHER
3. WHAT THE F*CK: WHAT THE FUDGE/WHAT THE FISHCAKE/ WHAT THE CRAP/WHAT THE CHEESE CRACKERS (or anything food related)
4. B*TCH: BETCH/BISH/FISH
5. D*CK: PENIS

i cant think of anymore swear words.

but here's a website related to my blog post;

http://www.noswearing.com

Happy Valentines Day

2011-02-15T17:11:00.003+08:00

FCKH8

Oohyoutouchmytalala commented:

"99% likelihood that you watch lesbian porn and drool over it. 99.9% likelihood that you watch porn otherwise and drool over it. And you're calling male lovers 'perverts'. Lulul.

Pedofiles, rapists, murderers - legally, they all have as much right to get married as straight people. But then gays are persecuted for loving someone of the same sex? How can you not see that sexuality is the most fluent thing there is? Lesbian, gay, straight, bi, transgender - we're all fucking people."

FCKH8

2011-01-09T11:56:00.002+08:00

the ONLY time i have ever felt beautiful or even close to pretty was when i was 15.
i remember soo clearly.

i was in cambodia with my parents, having the worst time ever. probably the worst "holiday" ive ever been on. its not the country i dislike, its the company.

anyway, we were driving around the kampung area and dropped by a couple of fruit stalls.
i was sweaty, hungry and felt so frustrated, desperately wanting to go home.
my shirt and hat was basically soaked in sweat.

then, i saw a bus filled with tourists from Italy. i mean, you could tell, if you see loud people doing hand signals - they're either Italian or French.

anyway, i was so annoyed with my parents and bumped into this old Italian lady.
i apologised and smiled to her and was about to walk away until she held my arm and looked at me. she did hand gestures around my face and said, "Bello" or was it bella?

i went blank. i told her i cant speak italian, she smiled and walked away.
then i turned around and my dad looked at me and said she thought i was beautiful.

whoever you are, old italian lady.
you made my day.
we need more people like you, especially in this world we live in

this is tough

2011-01-09T11:48:00.003+08:00

Never felt this crappy in a loong time.
everything happening around me right now, i just can't seem to keep it within my control, you know?
I fear i might just lose control over everything i once had.

Seeing how everything's just revolving around me as time passes, i just have to keep sane and wait for something to happen next.

The Secret.

2010-12-15T11:01:00.002+08:00

Do you know about The Secret?
The Secret to life?

There's a secret, Plato, Shakespeare, Newton, Beethoven, Edison, Einstein, Hugo and Lincoln knew about The Secret.

Their names have been immortalized, and their legendary existence have survived centuries because of The Secret.

Very few people know about this secret.

The Secret to life.

People have used The Secret to manifest their perfect homes, life partners, cars, jobs, and promotions, with many accounts of businesses being transformed within days of applying The Secret. People wrote about healing from chronic pain, depression, and disease; walking for the first time after an accident; even recovering from a deathbed because of The Secret.

The Secret is law of attraction.

Imagine yourself as a magnet.
The thoughts in your head want something really badly (and repeats itself over and over again in your head), you will eventually attract like thoughts physically to you.

You should get this book, The Secret by Rhonda Byrne.
She talks about the application of The Secret to health, to the world and to you.

It's amazing how powerful a mind is.
I've learned that we should never think of negative thoughts, because eventually like thoughts will present itself to you.

2010-12-09T14:04:00.003+08:00

its been a while.

M.C.S.
the middle child of a family experiences this syndrome.

Symptoms-
1. Feels very unappreciated.
2. Doesnt feel loved by the parents.
3. Thinks the youngest and the oldest sibling gets all the love.
4. Feels like he/she is the only one in the family who cares about anything.
5. If you're my brother.

M.C.S. - Middle Child Syndrome.

2010-11-29T19:36:00.001+08:00

Why doesnt SPM feel like thaat big of a deal anymore?
trials felt more terrifying(?)

is it just me?

i think this is baaaddd.
i need to studyyyyyyy
i need to get an A for AGAMA! D:

URGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2010-11-17T11:14:00.001+08:00

hi everyone!

2010-11-16T18:01:00.002+08:00

id like to let ya'll know that im not trying to judge anyone! (previous post)
im talking about a few people i know.
kkkkkkk?

im not out to diss anyone, just coz they listen to different music than i do.
im talking about people (that i know) who DOES NOT listen to the music that everyone thinks they do.
their intention is to impress with no music knowledge whatsoever.
thats what im sayin'

"LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL!" - Mohd Anwar Ihsan.

mucho's love-o's.

2010-11-15T19:11:00.002+08:00

One thing that angers me soooooo much:
People who supposedly "listen" to great, great musicians but just lays it out for people to think that they're super coo'.

URGH!
ITS SO OBVIOUS, especially for me!
i mean, what do you get from FALSELY impressing someone?!
they WILL eventually find out anyway!

it pisses me off so much.
especially in their facebook profile, under favourite music:

for ex:
Jimi Hendrix, Foo Fighters, The Rolling Stones, Queen, KATY PERRY, BOYS LIKE GIRLS, Bob Dylan, Coldplay, WE THE KINGS, OWL CITY, Queens of the Stone Age and so on..

MDRFCKRS!!

i dont care if you listen to crap music but DONT ACT like you listen to well respected musicians. even if you do, i bet its with the speakers turned off. knowing people like you.

i know a handful of people like this.
i wish i could be super straight-forward about this.
but for some reason, i get REALLY offensive and would start a fight.

so, if you think im talking about you, then do something about it!

The Dear Hunter

2010-11-14T16:54:00.000+08:00

Everything you'd live and die for
Reasons leading you through here
Perished matriarchal bonds
Failing innocence of love
When the world beckons your approach
It swallows you whole

You'll believe what you're led to believe
In the hands of ghosts we're never responsible
Wait to see what you're meant to see
The veil lifts when you expose your soul

Pray'd I would leave this place someday
Joined to alarm from long ago now unconcerned
Euphorically floating upon wax wings where is the sun?
I still see her face; her beauty her grace
Transfixed like a light in front of me
It follows my soul
And swallows me whole

You'll believe what you're led to believe
In the hands of ghosts we're never responsible
Wait to see what you're meant to see
The veil lifts when you expose your soul

Left, right, left, right...

His branches reached so far before
His leaves were bold extremities with great control
Wasted along; he died alone

You'll believe what you're led to believe
In the hands of ghosts we're never responsible
Wait to see what you're meant to see
The veil lifts when you expose your soul

But the right hand hates the left and the sea's upset with the sky
So we press on in spite of the spite
Happiness is a knife when the worlds on its side and your minds on fire

Trying to find the trouble with the trouble I've found
Begging my god to make the wheels go round
Eat so much but I never get full
Earth opened up and swallowed us whole

have you ever..

2010-11-10T19:48:00.002+08:00

.. been in a crowded place and thought of the most ridiculous thing to do and actually thought it was okay to humiliate yourself for just that moment?

but in reality, you know you'd never do anything that stupid!
ive thought of alot of weird hypothetical situations in my mind.

once, ive thought of solo dancing in the middle of the school cafeteria during lunch break, and actually thought it was okay until i realised how embarrassing it was if i actually did it.

ive also thought of getting a few people and "jammed" to great music in the waiting area of my school.
but wait, that happened on the last day of my school but happened in the school corridor.
:')

i dont know if im making ANY sense at all.
well, i hope i do.
and hope that i didnt sound completely weird.
yeah, k bye!

Hug the Indian/Chinese/Malay Day!

2010-11-07T18:29:00.002+08:00

click to enlarge

Signs

2010-11-05T19:05:00.002+08:00

I believe in signs. Do you?

if you dont, do you believe in coincidence?

coincidental incidents to some people but to me, they're all signs.
i guess its because i believe everything happens for a reason.
i think, our life is all planned out on this piece of paper, drawn out by God.
our time-line jotted down.
when life begins and ends.
when we fall in love or out of love.
when we're hurting or healing.

and when i feel hopeful or in doubt, i LOOK for signs.
but then, whats the point?
if you're looking for signs, you're just looking for false hope.
thus, leading to disappointment.

2010-11-03T23:51:00.002+08:00

EVERYONE is a hypocrite.
WE are ALL hypocrites.

Therefore, when i call someone a hypocrite, i AM a hypocrite.

h y p o c r i t e.

2010-11-01T09:55:00.002+08:00

if i were born in the 50s', i bet id be one hella weird hippie.
i can imagine myself in a volkswagen van (painted with colours of the rainbow by me).
with dreadlocks and cool baggy clothes.
and so free from everything! from the stupid society of today!
probably hating the world and saving the environment.

thats where i want to be today.

but, sadly, i have SPM.
and would be in jail for smoking weed.

the only difference i have with my hypothetical hippie self is that i dont have dreadlocks. and as for the volkswagen van, my dad may consider ;)

wooohooo!

as for now, i will leave you with pictures.

LOL.

2010-10-15T17:41:00.002+08:00

if only i could grow a stache.
if only...

2010-10-13T18:05:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU, STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE WITH HOT CHOCOLATE SAUCE ALL OVER AND WAFFLES WITH VANILLA ICE-CREAM ON TOP AND A CUP OF HOT CHOCOLATE CAUSE I LOVE YOU SO MUCHHHHHH.

EEEEEEEEE. geliiiiiii.

International Suit Up Day 2010!

2010-10-12T23:17:00.004+08:00

photo taken from International Suit Up Day album on facebook.

Suit up!

This is gonna be legen- wait for it, and I hope you're not lactose-intolerant because the next word is -DAIRY!

oh how i love Barney Stinson.

La Vida Loca

2010-10-12T20:57:00.001+08:00

Have you ever had that feeling when you can just lie in bed and not feel a sense of worry or fear?
Like for me, right now.
I cant just lay in bed and relax. I feel like I'm wasting too much time, not studying. And i'll have that fear of regret when i get my SPM results.

i want to feel calm, again.
i want to not care about anything. everything.
i want to lose myself in my sleep and be at peace.

im not saying i want to die -_- kkkk.

but whatever it is, the day i feel calm again will start with the moment when i put my pen down right after writing the last essay for the economics paper of the year on the 20th December 2010. <3

2010-10-09T21:27:00.002+08:00

iwishiwishiwishiwishiwishiwish my clogged up mind would just UNCLOG ITSELF.
that sounded pretty lame.
whatever, MY blog.

today sucked, this month sucked.
way too many workload!!!!!!!!!!!!
its NOT funny, especially if you're sitting for a major exam in what? 40 days?!
i cant say no! because i feel like im obliged to do it. so, cant blame 'em.

i should be studying now but im mad upset to do anything.
blogging helps, i guess.

iwishiwishiwishiwishiwishiwish TIME COULD JUST STOP.

_
btw;

MY DAD IS AWESOME MY DAD IS AWESOME MY DAD IS AWESOME MY DAD IS AWESOME MY DAD IS AWESOME MY DAD IS AWESOME MY DAD IS AWESOME

.. and alive! *phew.

just realised, too many repetition, sorry!

Nightmare.

2010-10-08T18:43:00.002+08:00

2 nights ago, i had this nightmare about my dad.
i was on a holiday with my friends in Tioman while my dad was in UK on a business trip.
i was busy having fun til i got a call from my mom.
she told me that my dad died. *touch wood*
she said he was running away from this guy who was trying to rob him and wasn't really paying attention on where he was running to. so he tripped. and fell into a well.
noone saw.

and my dad was left dead in this well for about 3 days.
reminds me of The Ring.

ive never cried so much in my sleep.
and had this sudden realisation that i love my dad.
ive never said it before and never have i thought it before. im not saying that i didnt!

when i woke up, i ran to my dad, just to check whether he was okay (okay meaning alive).

i saw him watching tv and felt so relieved.
an hour later, he got dressed in his white button-up shirt and black slacks.
holding a suitcase.

he was going to UK for a business trip.
what a freaking coincidence.

i have never had this much of fear losing him.
when he left, i hugged him like how i would everytime he leaves.
just because i dont want to jinx anything.

i waited for his call.
and got it!

relieved.
but but he's still there.
so, im still praying.

i KNOW its stupid. but "what if..?"

How to be...

2010-10-07T21:48:00.003+08:00

Famous: Korean girl/boy groups

1. You have to be good looking (for guys) pretty (for girls)
2. You dont need that special ability to sing.
3. Hire someone who can write songs about how hot your group is.
4. Hire any 6 year old kid to choreograph for you (for girls), 9 year old kid (for guys)
5. Sexy wardrobe
6. Singing classes (optional)
7. Nice hair

reference: Wonder Girls and 2PM

2010-10-04T22:11:00.000+08:00

love this.

damn awesome.

2010-10-03T14:21:00.002+08:00

im tired of this repetitive cycle

being told what to do

being told what i want

having this urge to break free

and when i do,

i wake up

from this fictional dream

with this petty hope

that for a moment

this could stop.

Creep.

2010-09-20T21:12:00.004+08:00

my friend, omar, told me about this girl, supposedly, named Nisya Barney added him on facebook. her profile picture is one of my profile pictures. SHE STOLE MY FREAKING PICTURE. anyway, i was damn freaked out. i saw my one of my friends, heidi, profile picture as well. she stole 2 albums worth of heidi's pictures. whaaaattttaaaaaacreeeepppppp.

the worst part is about the way she edited MY PICTURE and her "CREATIVE" CAPTIONS. seriously, freaky stuff. LOL one of 'em is " I'm not Rihanna. I dont love the way you lie". i literally couldnt stop laughing.

i messaged her but noooo reply!
not only that, SHE CHANGED HER NAME. i cant find her now.
atleast i managed to print screen it!

click to enlarge!

Dream turned into nightmare!

2010-09-08T20:52:00.002+08:00

I had this amazing, crazy dream!
I was on a holiday with my family and I bumped into BRANDON BOYD.
He smiles at me and asked for my hotel room number ;)
one day, he wanted to hang out, so he called my hotel room and asked me to meet him at this cave area. looks really funky (not in a good way) btw.
there's a gigantic mall inside the cave so we hung out over there and had fast food:)

it was good then we went back to our own hotel rooms.
the next day, he called me and asked whether i wanted to go swimming. (obviously I said YES!)
but but but after the swimming, he said we cant hang out anymore!

he said i was too young :'(

i cried. and went to back to the hotel room.
i looked outside the window and stared at his hot physique. (more or less stalked him from the window)
he started flirting with this lady.
an older lady.
much older lady.
50+ yrs old!

oh my freaking fudge cake,
then i realised,
it was my MOM.

HE BROKE UP WITH ME FOR MY MOM.

then i woke up. THANK GOD.

:'(

2010-08-29T13:33:00.001+08:00

i rofl'd too.

i think...

2010-08-29T11:30:00.001+08:00

Every guy should know this by now;

girls are always right when they PMS.

2010-08-15T14:09:00.001+08:00

weng says:
'I don't know why I said goodbye I said hello!' I sang that in giordano that day
Then this girl said 'you watch glee also ah?'
I was like, WTF?

azalea says:
ahahahhaahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah
ahahahhahahahahahaahahhahahahahahahahhahahahahaha
ahahhahahhahahaha

for the beatles fans!

2010-08-11T09:51:00.002+08:00

Whats the first thing everyone does right after they break up?

Change their relationship status on facebook.

this is what i call..

2010-08-10T23:57:00.003+08:00

Bromance.

the look on Anwar's face adds an extra touch.

what is "beautiful" anyway?

2010-07-19T20:48:00.002+08:00

I used to think that showing skin was beautiful. or like wearing thick make-up with coloured contacts.

when i was 12, i used to buy all of my clothes with sizes XS or S without even trying it on. and it could fit, then. til after i broke my arm, i gained quite a lot of weight and could not fit into clothes i used to be able fit into a year before.

back then, i would NEVER EVER buy any clothing that was bigger than XS or S. eventhough, i KNEW i could never fit into it.

but i had always thought, being skinny makes you beautiful.

so i used to wear skin tight clothings alot. and adding on thick eyeliner. just to impress people around me. but little did i know, people started losing respect for me.

i also used to put on eyeliner to school.

and with all my exs', i wanted to look "pretty" for them. "pretty" meaning cleavage, make-up and tight skirts.

we can't deny the fact that girls who just passed puberty think the same way i did before. because its happening in front of my own eyes. even girls my age.

what made me change my perception of beauty? you.

guys ive dated would only call me pretty or beautiful ONLY when i have make-up on and wearing something tight or short.

but with you, you make me feel so comfortable without anything on my face and even when im fully covered.

so, thank you.

btw, i am not trying to diss anyone. just my thoughts about this. so please, dont be offended.

damn

2010-06-22T19:56:00.001+08:00

oh, how i wish i was as cool as you.

Harro

2010-05-28T22:19:00.003+08:00

Hello, guys :)

okay, a few things:

1. I'm bored. Ask me something on formspring! PLEASE.

2. I love food.

3. I give up on studying.

4. I HATE THE FACT THAT PEOPLE POST LYRICS BY COMMENTING ON EVERYONES FACEBOOK STATUSES/WALLPOSTS ALL THE TIME. AS IF THEY KNOW EVERY LYRIC TO EVERY SONG. COULD YOU PLEASE STOP GOOGLING THE LYRICS? I BET YOU HAVENT EVEN HEARD OF THE SONGS YOU POST LYRICS TO. I'm refering to one person, actually. I shall not name. Sorry, have been meaning to let it out. THIS SPECIFIC PERSON IS PISSING ME OFF TO THE CORE. I feel like blocking him/her but will resist.

5. I'm sorry if you think im not a nice person ^

6. Happiness > SPM

7. I need to start watching some of 'em good movies. DURING JUNE HOLIDAYS! Movie marathon, anyone? :D :D :D

8. Computer games are so addictive.

9. I need clothes. Like, seriously. Like, fo' shizzle. Like, yeah.

10. I am in love.

GOOOOGLLEEEEEE; PACMAAAAN

2010-05-22T13:10:00.002+08:00

Pacman on google

you can even hover it and start playing!

ive been on google for awhile now. heeeeee.

dont mind me, im de-stressing myself.

2010-05-15T20:54:00.002+08:00

i am so tired and am in so much pain.

i feel like breaking down.

midyears starts this thursday.
and im getting really distracted with everything.
nobody's helping. not even you.

again, i am so tired.

can i sleep for just a little while, please?

MUST READ.

2010-05-02T22:32:00.003+08:00

"I'm in love with my grandson and we're having a baby"

When 72-year-old Pearl met her grandson, little did she realise she'd soon be 'pregnant' with his child.

Pearl Carter is positively glowing with joy. She has a handsome new boyfriend, is enjoying an active sex life after many years of celibacy and, amazingly, is preparing to become a mother again.

But the retired grandmother isn't carrying the baby herself. She and her young lover have spent a staggering $54,000 hiring a surrogate to help them with their dreams of having a child.

What makes Pearl's decision to become a mum again even more shocking is that her new boyfriend is her biological grandson, 26-year-old Phil Bailey.

Phil is the son of Pearl's daughter Lynette Bailey, and the pair is braving public horror and even prison by breaking one of the last taboos – incest.

However, the pair makes no apologies for their controversial plan to start their own family.
'I'm not interested in anyone else's opinion,' Pearl says. 'I am in love with Phil and he's in love with me.
Soon I'll be holding my son or daughter in my arms and Phil will be the proud dad'.
Phil adds, 'I love Pearl with all my heart. I've always been attracted to older women and I think Pearl is gorgeous. Now I'm going to be a dad and I can't wait.

'Yes, we get laughed at and bullied when we go out and kiss in public but we don't care. You can't help who you fall for.'

Pearl was 18 when she fell pregnant with daughter Lynette. She was living with her Catholic parents in Indiana and they insisted she give the baby away, so as not to bring the family into disrepute.They organised a private adoption and Pearl never again saw her baby girl.
Pearl went on to marry, but she never had any more children. Instead she searched for her lost daughter until finally giving up hope 15 years ago.
Finding each other

In 1983, Pearl's daughter Lynette had a baby of her own, who she named Phil. She raised him as a single mother.

'My mother told me she was adopted when I was 18, and at the same time she told me she'd been diagnosed with brain cancer,' Phil says. 'I was devastated.'
Phil nursed his mum for six months before she died. It was then he decided to track down his grandmother. It took three years before he found an address for Pearl and wrote to her.

'I was stunned to get his letter,' says Pearl, who was now single. 'My heart jumped that I'd be re-united with a grandson. I wrote back immediately and included my phone number.'

When Phil phoned Pearl, the pair admits they were both rather nervous. Pearl told Phil about being forced to give up Lynette for adoption, and Phil told Pearl about his mum dying of cancer.
'We both cried but kept talking for three hours,' she says. 'When he emailed me a photo, I thought what a handsome and sexy man he was before pinching myself – he was my grandson!'
Confused, Pearl talked to a friend, who told her about an article she'd read on Genetic Sexual Attraction (GSA), which occurs when close relatives meet as adults and are attracted to each other.

'I could now understand my feelings and realise they weren't wrong,' Pearl says.
In 2006, Phil met his grandmother for the first time.
'From the first moment that I saw him, I knew we would never have a grandmother-grandson relationship,' Pearl remembers happily. 'For the first time in years I felt sexually alive.'
Phil admits that he had the same feelings towards Pearl.
'I wanted to kiss her there and then,' he says. 'My feelings were overwhelming.'

The pair spent the first week shopping, bowling and eating out. During the second week, giggly on wine after a night out, Pearl decided she wasn't going to deny her feelings anymore.
Unexpected feelings
'I called Phil into my bedroom, sat him on the bed, and then I leant over and kissed him,' Pearl says.
'I expected rejection but instead he kissed me back.'
Pearl then explained to Phil what she'd discovered about GSA.
'I was thrilled and excited,' Phil says. 'I could be with Pearl and it was OK because she'd never raised me or been in my life.'

That night, grandmother and grandson became lovers.

'Making love to Pearl was a real eye-opener. It was love combined with all this sexual tension that had been building up,' Phil openly explains.

Phil, a carpenter, agreed to live with Pearl and get a job with a local building firm.
'Living with Phil as my life partner has been amazing. He cooks and cleans and we make love three times a week. We can't keep our hands off each other.'

Twelve months ago, Phil made the shocking admission that he wanted a child. Pearl told him she was desperate for a baby as well, but it was one wish that she couldn't fulfil as she'd already gone through menopause.

The determined pair then decided to use Pearl's retirement money to find a surrogate mother and buy a donor egg to inseminate with Phil's sperm. They placed an ad asking for an open-minded surrogate, and Roxanne Campbell applied. The three met up a few times and hit it off.

'Initially I was shocked,' says Roxanne on learning the couple were related. 'But they're a brilliant pair and I saw how much they loved each other. I know the baby will be loved too.'
The couple sees 30-year-old Roxanne once a month and accompany her for scans, with Pearl playing the part of a pal or the baby's grandmother.

'I am just so happy,' Pearl says.'I am finally going to be a mum and not forced to give up my child. Phil's going to be a great dad. I never in a million years thought at 72 I'd be "pregnant" and in love with my grandson. I make no apologies and I believe God's given me a second chance.'

2010-04-23T11:03:00.001+08:00

facebook is reeetarded.

2010-04-18T22:16:00.004+08:00

Family?

Family.

spot the difference.

hint? the smiles.

distant sun.

2010-04-18T21:07:00.004+08:00

I remember this weird feeling i had during the time i slept over at Joyce's house.
the feeling only lasted for a short while.
but during that short while, ive thought about things i havent really thought about in a long time.

i remember we were in Joyce's elder brother's room,

and the first thing she said to me was, "I miss my brother."

and i thought, woah, thats really weird. i can never say the same about my brothers. at all.

they were both in UK for about 3 or 4 years for studies and my eldest brother is currently in India, working.

and to be honest,
i dont miss him.
i didnt miss them.
i dont want to lie, but i honestly didnt.

i feel sad that i cant say the same about my brothers.

i remember being veryyy close to them when i was like 5 years old?
but ever since then, we drifted.
still drifting.

both of my brothers are very close though.
i used to blame it on the age difference.
I'm 17, brother 1 is 23 and brother 2 is 25.

buuttt a few of my friends proved me wrong.

what is "family" anyway?
you cant call a family when someone in the family treats you as a complete stranger in the house.
taking my brothers and i as the example.
they treat me like complete strangers when theyre around.

ive tried being closer to them.
ive tried.
but whats the point when im the only one trying and theyre not?
thus giving up is my solution.

i am done trying.

Do i have to keep up the pace to keep you satisfied?

2010-04-18T15:37:00.002+08:00

Today,
I...

changed my blogheader.

And..

skyped with a wolf.

apple, apple, appleeeeee.

2010-04-15T23:32:00.004+08:00

SO, im on this STUPID diet, right. its like an apple diet.
all i eat is apples.
unfortunately, only green apples.

cause red apples have like a lot of sugar compared to the green ones.
but if im REAALLY hungry, id eat REAL, PROPER food.

this diet isnt going so well :'(

apples.
how i love 'em.
D:

i MEAAAAN...

D:

2010-04-15T22:03:00.005+08:00

Pictures I took when i was in Jakarta, way back in November.

My maid's family

Taking pictures on a motorbike B-)

The Face You Can Trust

Dinner for 3

Pondan.

teehee.

bye.

* azalea.

oh YEAH?

2010-04-04T23:25:00.003+08:00

WANNA HEAR A JOKE?

oh YEAH?

YOUR FACE.

Waffles or Pancakes

2010-04-04T23:05:00.006+08:00

Azalea is lazy. So i blog for her k

So i can't really decide whether i prefer waffles or pancakes.
I mean srsly.
It's usually the same batter and what not but there is somewhat a difference.
At times i feel like a waffle and at times i feel like a pancake.
Sometimes i feel like both.

Sometimes i feel like a waffle with melted butter and sweet maple syrup.
Sometimes i feel like a waffle with plain vanilla ice cream
Sometimes i feel extravagant and would overdo it with a waffle, topped with vanilla ice cream, smothered with cut bananas and covered with melted chocolate.

Sometimes i feel like pancakes with melted butter and sweet maple syrup.
Sometimes i feel like pancakes with plain vanilla ice cream.
Sometimes i feel extravagant and would overdo it with a pancake, topped with vanilla ice cream, smothered with cut strawberries and covered with melted chocolate.
Sometimes i like it with nutella.

So many choices for so little time. And tummy space obviously.

Okay so thats all from me.
I'll leave this blog alone now.
It's not even mine.
Peaaaaaaceeeeee

Unchained Melody.

2010-03-21T20:30:00.002+08:00

Have you ever wondered about your future?
well, i do.

ALL the time
ive always wondered whether our future was already set by God.
our mistakes, our choices in life were already planned.
like a train on a long (or short if anything) track.

i feel like God is watching us following our respective tracks made by Him.
He knows every upcoming choice we make.
every single choice and mistake.

this scares me.
the way i die is already planned.
there is NO possible way for me to stop it.
unless God gives me a sign, a prophecy, anythiiiiiing.

just my opinion, guys.
i thought about this alot so i just had to let it out.
goodnight.
* azalea.

there is a light that never goes out.

2010-03-18T22:48:00.003+08:00

what was going through my head for the past hour;
two-faced people.

ive got to be honest, i used to be one of them. i used to be such a hypocrite about it, really.
but ive stopped, i hope anyway.

if you know someone who talks bad bout you behind your back and acts like such a freaking saint infront of you, what would you do?
ive gone through this before, way too many times.
and to be honest, id be nice to them but will give that i-know-youve-been-talking-behind-my-back-asshole look.

theyre pretty smart, people like them.
they act ultra nice to you so youd be nice to them. and if you dont, youd feel bad.
for some reason, this only happens to me with girls more.
cause (honestly!) girls cause way too much drama. even me, k.

but when it comes to guys, id make it so bloody obvious i hate (k, dislike) them.
guys who treat girls like theyre worth nothing especially.
what pisses me off even more, is that these girls would actually allow them to treat them that way.
i find that idiotic.

not only that, guys creating rumors. (this applies for girls as well)
people creating rumors just to make someones life miserable.
how low can you possibly get, seriously?
why do you do this? to make your life a little more exciting?
grow up.
for everyones sake.
oh oh, what makes it worse is that they even have the guts to actually be nice to you?
assholes, i tell you.

since now im in the mood to just stab people i hate with my imaginary knife, let me move on to
stabbing guys who cares about their looks more than any girl should.
i mean, its alright to care bout how you dress.

but to the extend of going to the gym just so you can LOOK better or too scared to put anything on to your face just because youre afraid some fungus would grow on your face or loving yourself more than you love your friends or learning the guitar just to impress girls or wearing sunglasses indoors or listening to bands like Lamb of God, thinking you're hardcore (the last two referring to my brother).

you cant be serious.

bleghhhhh people like them, they make me sick to my stomach.

THANK GOD FOR CHOCOLATE CHIPS AHOY AND FUNNY PICTURES.
and thank god for you :) i dont know what i couldve done without you.
you made my day.

i'll leave you guys with these pictures to make up for the amount of ranting ive put you guys through (whoever is actually reading my blog);

sorry for ranting, goodnight.

* azalea.

ezrul!

2010-03-06T23:04:00.003+08:00

talking about Mawi. Akademi Fantasia winner.

ezrul says:
i think he's like
real successful coz hes the first bald malaysian singer
azalea says:
HAAHAHAHA
first bald and gay
ezrul says:
hell yeah
he wears shades in the night
indoors too
i feel so " uncool " when i see him
azalea says:
omggg
he's so gayy
ezrul says:
omg i knoww
u knw
i always laugh thinking abt him
i think we shud pay him more for that
he spends thousands on his bloody suit
azalea says:
AHHAHAH
so materialistic and gay
ezrul says:
but cant even spend 20 decent bucks on a haircut
azalea says:
i know RIGHT!
ezrul says:
HAHAHAA
and he thinks hes hot and alim
omg
if i ever turned gay and he was the last man on earth
i'd start leaning to the monkeys
at least they got more hair
azalea says:
uhoh
i think im gonna copy and paste this conver on to my blog
hAHAHA
ezrul says:
AHAHAHAHA
woah woah
thats just mawi
i havent even started on
the others
please tell me u hate justin bieber
u knw when i first heard his songs
i thought it was a 40 year old black dude who decided to go chipmunk in the studio

OUT OF TOPIC;

ezrul says:
u know
either i must have been taking drugs accidentally
or im hallucinating
but i think i just saw a half naked old lady walk on my neighbors roof o.o
azalea says:
um
thats
sick
:/
ezrul says:
im not joking o.o
shit
this is freaky
azalea says:
chilllllll
lets hope shes wearing clothes

rofl
k bye
* azalea.

Let meee, let meee, let meee get what i waaaant

2010-03-04T20:50:00.002+08:00

So, i see on my facebook homepage, alot of statuses like
" Okay, i gotta focus on my studies. Goodbye Facebook" or "Facebook is boring. Gonna delete my account".

and a few days later, i see these specific group of people updating their status saying "Cant live without my facebook, sorry", "Aiyo, i miss playing Mafia Wars" or somewhere along those lines.

funny people.

--

i have a fluuuu :'(
when i say rofl, it sounds like waffle.

--

aiyo i miss food.
fo shiz.
stupid fever, GO AWAY.

--

i miss my friends. bonding time soon pls?

kayyy, sorry to bore the few people who actually reads my blog.

byeee.
* azalea.

addiction.

2010-02-25T22:22:00.004+08:00

i think i talk about food way too much.
i think im addicted. fo' shiz.
damnn facebook! too many proofs! showned to everyone!
there you go;
proofs for MY FOOD ADDICTION:

goddamnit! i just realised, the last time i blogged.. it was also about food.

motherrfuu---

* azalea.

FOOD.

2010-02-16T22:38:00.002+08:00

okay, i eat alot.
like, ALOT.
like, ALOOOOOOOT.
like, it has come to the point where my parents have to hide food from me.
not cool.

seeing how its Chinese New Year, my parents are more cautious with me when im around food.
seriously not cool.

even my friends are getting more worried. (Lih Seng, Haw Donq and Andrew)
they had to watch me buy food once. they were afraid i'd overdose.

damn, i gotta stop eating.

sorry for ranting.
hope you guys had a good CNY!

kbye.
* azalea.

2010-02-14T23:43:00.002+08:00

Hey man! Look at me rockin' out!

2010-02-14T23:04:00.003+08:00

I guess its about time i start blogging again.

Sports Day is over.

Green house cheerleading didnt get first place but thats okay!

I had sooo much fun with em.
will miss everyone :'(

atleast we have Open Day coming up! :)
more practises! :D

anyway,
Today is the first day of Chinese New Year and also Valentine's Day.
Sucks, i guess :(

Today, i spent the morning with my family.

Gambled a little bit. and won $$$. B-)

teehee.

and for dinner, i spent it with 2 lovebirds.

which is kinda sad, i had no date for the night :(

i felt like i was disturbing them :(

sorry, guys!

kay, thats it for now.

GONG XI FA CAI!

* azalea.

kickapoooo.

2010-01-31T23:34:00.002+08:00

click to enlarge.

20th Jan.

stupid peter.

went on to my computer during ict and spammed "berbulu" lyrics on my facebook wall.

(first picture)

i then decide to explain to my friends that i really do NOT have a kotek.
(second picture)

i hope you guys think so too.

* azalea.

SINGAPORE '09

2010-01-16T23:05:00.004+08:00

singapore for christmas, last year.
* azalea.

oh hot daaaaamn

2010-01-16T22:49:00.002+08:00

my previous post was pretty emo. i guess?

now i have a "BETTER" update.

i sprained my ankle !

:'(
:'(

mother faaa-ther maaaan.
i loove cheer but its getting tougher :(
alot of cramming to do in a couple of weeks!

i wannaaa just stop school.
and go on a vacation.
with a group of friends.
maybe, around Europe?

oooooh, ilikethat.
anybody up for it?:)

* azalea.

2010-01-11T01:11:00.002+08:00

GAAAAAAAAHHH.

i feel so crappy right now.

somebody, please shoooot me.

play that funkyy music, white boyy.

2010-01-05T21:05:00.009+08:00

1st Jan 2010.
NEW YEARS.
was fuuuuun.

had no sleep, kicked some ass (well, not reaally), taylor swift, late night swim, gave away my marshmallows for the very first time :O. i know, andrew, you must be very proud.

2nd Jan 2010.
joyce's birthday parteeee.

i got myself a new boyfriend ;)
and i forgot his name. HE IS SO CUTE THOUGH.
he held my hand and brought me to his room.
he loves acting like a monster.
awww :)

oh, did i mention he's 2 years old?
uh ohh, cougar :O hehehe. but whatever, age doesnt matter ;)
i had alot of fun! from pillow fights to karaoke to musical chairs.
i missed my friends, was great seeing them there!:)

thanks for the invite, JOYCE YAP WENG YAN :)

i am NOT bullying them!

my boyfriend :)

being attacked by children

RAWWWR.

hahahaha:D

i liiiike

poker face

5th Jan 2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCEEEEEEEEE.

:) i hope you had fun at yr birthday party!
and by the way, no more touching my body.
hahaha :)

kay, done.
* azalea.

2009

2009-12-31T14:30:00.006+08:00

last post of the year :'(

aww, PANDA! can i keeep youu? :(

happy bois

-__-

0.0

the day i met marley! :D

fat girl feeds skinny boy

heehee.

halloweeeen.

call me ;)

anwar and the ladies ;)

-.-

a heart!

jump!

teehee >:D

lala mui

merdeka carnival :)

awww, i miss you :(

victoooooh & tash :)

our human bicycle

open day!

i misss you guys :(

(flex)

4 Jenner of 2009

i love you guys :)

All in all, 2009 was a great year.

made new friends.

didnt slack as much as i did last year.

ROXY, my babyyy.

gotten myself into alot of craap.

ate alot, well, yeah, no surprise.

but whatever it is, 2009 was a great year.

hopefully, 2010 will be a better year.

prepare yourself for new experiences.

in addition to that, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSHUA TAN.

we were supposed to go out but i guess, we've been too busy.

remember yeah, we need to catch up before we lose complete contact with each other.

hope you have a great one!

oh oh, HAPPY NEW YEARS!

* azalea.

in the eyes of a passer by.

2009-12-30T18:24:00.003+08:00

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY LIH SENG!
i wished you already, this is just a birthday post.
soooo where do i begin?
my bestfriend, brader and sometimes, my father.

only wants whats best for me :)

we've been through so muuuch crap, but we pull through together.
and not to mention, have crazy alot of great memories :)

im sorry i was awaaay on yr birthday!
i owe you b-b-b-big time.
and i really hope you like my drawing.
it sucks, i know.
but dont forget! im still learning :)

i love yaaaaaa, tiimothyy.

hope you had fun on yr birthday!

will see you soon :)
muchoooo loooove,
* azalea.

we are agents of the freeeee.

2009-12-29T21:14:00.002+08:00

2AM;
I'm thinking spaghetti bolognese with exxxtra cheeeze with toasted garlic bread on the side and yummy smores after.

what say you?

* azalea.

there is no modern romance

2009-12-23T18:12:00.003+08:00

i cant wait. :)

* azalea.

EDIT;

ANYBODY WANNA GO TO YEAH YEAH YEAHS?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

2009-12-21T23:36:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HO TECK TSEN

IM SO SORRY I DIDNT WISH YOU ON TIME.
I KNOW ITS 1149 PM.
I KNOW YOUR BIRTHDAY IS GONNA END IN 11 MINUTES.
IM SORRYYYYYYYYYY.
IM TYPING WITH THE CAPS LOCK ON, THIS SHOWS HOW BAD I FEEL FOR NOT WISHING YOU ON TIME.

AND I KNOW YOU'LL FORGIVE ME CAUSE YOU'RE COOL LIKE THAT :)

I CHOSE ALL THE GOOD PICTURES OF YOU CAUSE YOU KNOW IM NICE THAT WAY.

HEEHEE.

HAVE A GREAT ONE, HO.T.T.

* azalea.

stand inside your love.

2009-12-18T00:32:00.002+08:00

i did not write this, guys.
thought i could share it.

---
I need to write. I need to write, paint, cry it all away.
I've found love, as ridiculous and impossible as that is.
For me, anyway. I am a cynical person. In everything and everyone, I find fault.

I believe in love, I really believe in love.
But for so long I've been too cynical, too logical, too damn scared to feel it.

I don't know where to begin.

It all started with a drunken kiss. But in that person I've found everything I ever dreamed of.

He has an overwhelming passion for life. An artist. A dreamer. When he looks at me, it's like he's staring at the stars. He sees a beauty I can't even hope to ever see. He can look into my soul, without me saying a thing he can perfectly articulate everything I've tried so hard to hide from everyone.

He can't not touch me, stroke my hand, my back. Anyone else, I would be in heaven. I would jump in and never look back.

Even typing this, I feel my happiness being crushed. He's my best friend's dad. 30 years my senior.

I don't know why anyone would want to hear this, to hear about this disgusting, sordid little situation. But it's not disgusting, it's not sordid. I've written pages upon pages of letters and confessions. Paintings, drawings, I'm trying to put it down somewhere so that I can look at it and somehow rationalize it. I've written this email a dozen times.

Sometimes I say that it's just too impossible, too hard. Other's I can't imagine having to let him go.

I'm terrified.

What if my life, my family and friends, all crumbles beneath me?
But what if in years to come, I look back full of regret. This man truly loved me.

He wanted to give me the world.

And I threw it all away because of fear.

The truth is, I have no idea.

But in doing this, I'm keeping him in a state of limbo that is killing him.

I tried to end it, I tried to be strong.

But there wasn't a single part of me that was sincere.
He saw that.
He didn't let go easily and now we're back where we started.

Nothing could be more beautiful and true, or more petrifying.

-M
---

what would you do?
* azalea.

she don't use jelly.

2009-12-16T16:17:00.003+08:00

i love my kitty.
but she came with consequences.

i have no privacy.
before my kitty came, noone would go into my room except for my maid.

since my kitty came,
my whole family would go into my room to check on my kitty.
not me,
but my kitty.

jeeeeeezz.
i miss my privacy.

everytime my kitty pees or poos or eat, my parents would nudge me and scream:"OH MY GOD, SHE'S PEEEING!" , "AZALEA, LOOOOOK! LOOOK! LOOOK! LOOOOOOOOOOOOK! SHE'S POOPING!"

my god.

the day i left for jakarta,
i woke up to the sound of my mother's voice.
i dont like it.

she came into my room at 6 in the morning.
not to wake me up.
to see my kitty.
but she woke me up anyway.
"ROXY GURRRRLL. ROXYYYY. GURRRRLL. ROXXXYYYYYY. AWWW. ROXXYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY"

i threw my pillow at my mother's face.
hehehehe.
she deserved it.
>:D

i love my kitty nonetheless.
--

last night was fun.
3W of '08 reunion!

I LOVE YOU GUYYYS
:)

--

ooooh ohhh, it was also andrew's birthday, 3 days ago!
we had a little surprise cake for him yesterday.
:)

HAPPY *belated* BIRTHDAY ANDREW BOYYYYY!

cause its your birthday, i forgive you for all the insults and jokes . :)

and waaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh, andrewwwwww, you damn bufff man.

hehe. stop blushing, andrew.

and remember yeah, open your eyes.

teeehee. dont hate me :D

* azalea.

oh! sweet nuthin'

2009-12-13T00:28:00.003+08:00

an update on my kittyyyyy:
roxy!

she's supa' fly yo.

she's got cream coloured moustache.

roxy & i. teehee.

roxy kissing me. awwww.

me trying to kiss roxy :(

roxy isnt so good at taking pictures.

but she's getting there.

my kitty is cool.

cooler than MC Hammer and Vanilla Ice put together.

kbye.

* azalea.

look-a-like!

2009-12-11T23:20:00.003+08:00

zooey deschanel vs. katy perry

LOOK-A-LIKE.

love is only a feeling.

2009-12-11T22:01:00.006+08:00

HAHA, i remember this.

lala mui ><

HAHAHA jas so cute la :D

PANDAAAAAA

hehehe. i like this one!>:D

awwwwwwwwww

i miss you guys! :(

whiite riiot.

2009-12-11T21:27:00.002+08:00

I'm BAAAAAACK.

ive got funny stories.
but i.am.lazy.

maybe next time? :)

anyway,
foo fighters latest single "wheels" is super gaaay.

gay gay gay gay gay gay gay.

they sound like drunk homosexual cowboys.

aaaaaargh.
i still love dave grohl though.
teeeeeheee.

but seriously,
i am :( with their new album.

they probably got inspired by Brokeback Mountain.
stupid gay cowboys.

now,
dave grohl
:D :D :D

stfu, seriously.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

:DDDDDD

* azalea.

i can't quit you baby.

2009-12-07T00:10:00.002+08:00

okay, one more picture before i leave to jakarta.

[enlarge]

lol, literally.

this world is full of pervs, i swear.

something different.

2009-12-06T22:41:00.000+08:00

she's so heavyyyyyy.

2009-12-05T13:57:00.000+08:00

got this from lihseng's blog.
hehe.

i ♥ tuition buddies

2009-12-04T12:30:00.006+08:00

bad ass man.

meowmeowmeow.

2009-11-27T21:07:00.004+08:00

My mother had a little surprise for me a few days ago!
heeeeeeeeeeeee.

it

was

a

KITTEN!
maine coon mix persian.

SHE IS SO CUUUUTE.

my kitty is into Incubus, doesnt really like Coldplay but gets pumped up with Bob Marley.

i ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ my kitty.

shes got good taste in music!

MY PARENTS have a list of names for the kitty:

1. J. Lo

2. Beyonce (cause my dad said my kitty can shake that thaang)

3. Queen Latifah

4. Comot

5. Mot (short for comot and my mom calls my dad that)

whuuuuut?

i really dont wanna name my adorable kitty any of that!

i might consider comot though. hehe.

any ideas?

she's falling asleep to Across The Universe by The Beatles now. awwwwww :)

* azalea.

EDIT; She's called Roxy.

Why?

cause she's got good taste in music, thats why B-)

(named after the song "Roxanne" by The Police)

one of her favourite songs!

its not named after that stupid shop okay!

And just maybe, i'm to blame for all i've heard.

2009-11-25T22:35:00.005+08:00

wowowowowow

waaaaasup.

so, holidays started.

i havent done anything exciting.. yet.

what i have planned for the holidays:

1. Sky diving

2. Fly to Japan and eat sushi.

3. Rockclimbing.

4. Paint in the dark.

5. Go on a cruise.. with Brandon Boyd.

6. Catch AC/DC, Incubus, Pearl Jam, Radiohead, Foo Fighters, RHCP, Smashing Pumpkins live, all at once.

(I have more to add to the list but it already seems impossible as it is)

7. Lose weight. (Jya' right)

hmm, well, 2 & 5 seems possible.

thats it for now.

i'll leave you guys with one of my favourite pictures of andrew and i;

hehehehehe, sorry andrew ;)

bye!

* azalea.

into the void.

2009-11-23T15:58:00.002+08:00

don't worry, be jewish.

started the holidays off with ADD MATHS TUITION.
yaaaaaaay.

but it wasnt so bad.
cause i got to spend time with lihseng, andrew, haw donq, foo and mr. jenson.
hehehe.

okay, i have to go.
have an awesome possum holidayyy.
* azalea.

take away this lonely man, soon he will be gone.

2009-11-15T19:36:00.002+08:00

oooooooh la la. B-)

ottoman.

2009-11-15T19:03:00.002+08:00

i just realised.
most of my blog titles are from songs.

aaaah.
i feel really crappy now.
alot on my mind. but its all mashed up together.
causing me to feel this way.

my past keeps coming back at me.

i wish i could just block it all out and move on.

the year is ending.
this week would be the last week of school.
craaaazy. time is passing by so fast.

anyway, i'm gonna go off now.
this post is pointless. sorry.
bye everyoneeeee.

* azalea.

na na na na na naaaaa

2009-10-30T12:05:00.009+08:00

hehe. exams are over. :D

this is gonna be a post full of pictures because i'm lazy.
joyce yap weng yan JUST uploaded the pictures from the 2nd october!

HAHAHA.

: )

happy belated birthday rachael! :D
i'm 28 days late. sorry :(

but remember, this was taken on your birthday! :D

B-)

PANDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

aaron, whatre you doing?

>:D

this is for teck tsen, lih seng, panda and andrew. hehehe >:)

tallest. :)

freanceyn = RM 10.

Jia ye. hahah!

HAHAHA.

"NICE". she was referring to herself.

for yen in. ahahhahah.

kay, bye!:)

You'd better bend before i gooooo.

2009-10-26T21:13:00.003+08:00

heheheh. 3 more papers left!

i'm almost FREE.

kay, im gonna go do something more... productive.

BYE.

* azalea.

2009-10-24T17:05:00.000+08:00

click to enlarge!

space oddity

2009-10-24T15:57:00.002+08:00

so i have this interview (march 2010) to get into this art & design college in uk.
i want to get in sooooooooooooooooo bad.
but right now, i dont wanna leave home :(

if i get in, i'll miss everyone! the food! my bed! my caaaatttttssss!
anyway, i dont think i can actually get in.

im nooo where near completing my portfolio.
not even halfway.
probably half of a quarter way.

yeaaaaaahh. i gotta start soooon. actually now.
but i have finals. and finals only end on tuesday.
so i'll start after!

ee lin, wan nee, jas, tash, lih seng, andrew, teck tsen or whoever.
i need you guys to pushhh me to finish it or even START doing it.

byebyebye.
* azalea.

it's time we all reach out for something new,

that means you too.

you say you want a leader,

but you can't seem to make up your mind.

I think you better close it,

and let me guide you to the purple rain.

purple rain, purple rain,

purple rain, purple raaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnn.

2009-10-21T20:11:00.002+08:00

I can't believe you have that picture on your wall.

You like Chagall?

I do. It feels like how being in love should be. Floating through a dark blue sky.

With a goat playing the violin.

Yes - happiness isn't happiness without a violin-playing goat.

i agree.

2009-10-20T22:25:00.002+08:00

[sms]

hello woman. studying?
sorry, i lost all my contacts! who is this?:/
freanceyn the sexy.
sorry, i only know one freanceyn. and she is NOT sexy.

>:D

Ho-tt.

2009-10-18T21:41:00.005+08:00

Azalea: What should i blog bout?
Teck Tsen: me :)

teck tsen looks like peter chao.

teck tsens funny.

he is so afraid of cockroaches.

he prefers chocolate over vanilla.

he plays the guitar.

he likes going to the gym

he is skinny

he is tall.

and

he is single ;)

ahahahahaha!

there you go, teck tsen.

* azalea.

FINALS.

2009-10-14T22:00:00.003+08:00

stupid finals.

i'm probably gonna fail for every single paper.

haha bm paper 2 was funny. i had so much time after doing the paper for about half an hour.

i remember i couldnt do two questions.
bina ayat questions.

and for sooommmee reason, i asked aaron. ahahahahah!

i couldnt bina ayat with "bersimpang-siur" and "beranak-pinak"

sooo he wrote on a piece of paper;

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhaaaaaaa.

what the hell, aaron! hahaha

if you cant see it, it says:

Ye Leong bersimpang-siur dengan Jia Yi.
Ye Leong beranak-pinak dengan Jia Yi.

dont know what he was thinking when he wrote that.

im gonna go now.

BYE GUYS.
* azalea.

:$

2009-10-12T23:01:00.002+08:00

Joyce: Azaleaaaaaa, touch my bodeh.

Azalea: Omg, eeeeeeeeeeeeeee. NO. *runnnn*

addicted to..

2009-10-10T21:41:00.005+08:00

I AM THE WALRUS.

such a great song, really.

I am he as you are he as you are me and we are all together.

See how they run like pigs from a gun, see how they fly.

I'm crying.

Sitting on a cornflake, waiting for the van to come.

Corporation tee-shirt, stupid bloody tuesday.

Man, you been a naughty boy, you let your face grow long.

I am the eggman, they are the eggmen.

I am the walrus, goo goo g'joob.

Mister city policeman sitting

Pretty little policemen in a row.

See how they fly like lucy in the sky, see how they run.

I'm crying, i'm crying.

Yellow matter custard, dripping from a dead dog's eye.

Crabalocker fishwife, pornographic priestess,

Boy, you been a naughty girl you let your knickers down.

I am the eggman, they are the eggmen.

I am the walrus, goo goo g'joob.

Sitting in an english garden waiting for the sun.

If the sun don't come, you get a tan

From standing in the english rain.

I am the eggman, they are the eggmen.

I am the walrus, goo goo g'joob g'goo goo g'joob.

Expert textpert choking smokers,

Don't you thing the joker laughs at you?

See how they smile like pigs in a sty,

See how they snied.

I'm crying.

Semolina pilchard, climbing up the eiffel tower.

Elementary penguin singing hari krishna.

Man, you should have seen them kicking edgar allan poe.

I am the eggman, they are the eggmen.

I am the walrus, goo goo g'joob g'goo goo g'joob.

Goo goo g'joob g'goo goo g'joob g'goo.

only the beatles can pull off a song like this.
such a stoner song.
thats why i love it :)

hehe.

bye, guys!
hope you guys are studying for finals! ;)

-zaleaaaa

gavin here

2009-09-28T17:45:00.002+08:00

hey azalea. you dont have to delete the blog. its yours. just start over.
you can delete this post if you want to.

but to clarify stuff, azalea has every right to do what she did, and i really want everything that people are saying about her to stop. i still trust her, and i know her well enough to know the rumours aren't true.

and azalea, if at anytime i've said or done things that made you upset or hurt you, im really sorry. we've had our ups and downs, but to me, it was all worth it. thanks for a great 11 months. you're an amazing beautiful girl and any guy would be lucky to have you.

bye. gavin.

Azalea here.

2009-09-25T23:48:00.004+08:00

I'm either going to remove this blog or start over.

Anyway, im blogging to clarify things.
all the rumors about me are NOT true.
dont believe an asshole.

if you want to know bout ANYTHING, just ask ME for yourself.
rather than making up some stupid crap or spreading rumors youve heard from someone.

seriously?

i'm sick of all this. so please, stop.

thank you.

2009-08-21T16:19:00.002+08:00

hi. azalea's been asking me to blog. cause she's busy. but so am i. so none of us have blogged in a while. and i seriously have nothing to blog about. cause my boarding school life isnt much fun. ):
anyway. im at the airport now. using airport wireless internet. waiting for my flight back to k.l which got delayed an hour. so yeah.
weelll, azalea starts her holidays today, for a week, and puasa tomorrow. hehehe. my holidays only start in 2 weeks. ):

heh. some woman just came up to me and started speaking to me in mandarin. i think she was asking me if the internet could be used. all i understood was ke yi ma? ke yi? -.- and all i said was 'i dont know' and now she is sitting opposite me and keeps looking at me like im some retard.
sigh.

im going read or something now. cant wait to go home. haha. (:

gavin

2009-08-11T22:30:00.009+08:00

I havent been blogging at all.
have been so busy with my art portfolio. really stressing myself out.
anyway, i'll be posting up pictures from zhen hui's dinner @ Jogoya, starhill.
food= good. :)

i'll post up pictures from my UK and switzerland trip sooooon (when i can).

pictures are all from facebook>

* azalea.

how was your weekend? (:

2009-08-10T14:40:00.002+08:00

hello.
i'm going back to singapore in like an hour. had a holiday today, (monday) so yeah. heh.
anywayy, i came back on friday evening, just in time to get ready to go to tash's small birthday gathering thingy at the hilton, k.l. i met azalea there and we had a very yummy dinner.

azalea then followed me home and slept over. the next day, we woke up and ordered McD's to the house for breakfast. and then, we hung around and stuff. we ordered pizza for lunch and after chilling abit, went for wannee's poolside party at mont kiara. azalea had to leave after about an hour there while i stayed on till 7 ish.

well thats all for azalea and i. (:

gavin

someone's homeeee!

2009-08-02T14:07:00.002+08:00

hehe. azalea came back from london this morning!

oh hi there. (:

gavin

i miss azaleaaaa

2009-07-19T14:21:00.002+08:00

its azalea's third day today in the u.k. i miss her aloootttt already. ):
i'm so used to talking to her everyday for like hours. and now we cant even communicate. ):
oh well. hope she's having lots of fun there! cant wait for you to come back alee.

i miss you. and i love you.

gavin.